Not saying that it's a bad thing...but I'm starting to wonder why I actually started using this online poetry site...I never get feed back when I do post stuff and what am I doing posting it anyways...I mean I write it for me, as a way to vent with the occasional "gifted to you" sort of poem for someone specific.
the last few months have had so many ups and downs...school was tough this semester though it was just my first semester at a new university so it could just be that I chose to do my hardest courses then. relationships have come and gone and gotten more difficult to work through...but I'm truly trying, I just don't seem to see the "green grass on the other side".
Transferring stores was one of the best decisions I've ever made...I mean I don't have to deal with a manager that doesn't like me "because I do the job better than he does" and I don't have to hear the hypocritical answers he gives in response to anything anymore. I got myself out before the store really turned to (excuse the french)"shit". A lot of the regulars at the old store are also regulars and my new location, one of them came in today and actually said that he doesn't go there anymore because it's changed so much for the worse and that there's no one there who can make his drink the "right way" anymore...as in the way I make it (yes he actually said that).
I made most of the christmas presents that I gave to people this year, and I kind of wish that I still had some of that creative energy running through me because I really want to paint and just enjoy myself with my art again, be that poetry or my paintings/drawings but I haven't been feeling it since I finished making everyone's presents.
Hopefully this semester I will get that creativity back into my life...one of my classes is an art class this semester and I will be making things, I just hope that they will turn out as well as the ones that I make in my free time.

anyways I'm off, seems late but I only got home from work at 11 so I'm still a little wired